It was 2005, and cult leader Karen Zerby was in hiding, as she had been for decades. Zerby was the head of the Family International (also known as the Children of God), a Christan cult that was paranoid in general, but leaders took secrecy to another level. No one knew where Zerby lived, and her entourage took great effort to keep it that way. Her son Ricky Rodriguez, after becoming disaffected and leaving the cult, had resorted to murder to try to locate her, but failed. Zerby’s real name wasn’t known for much of the cult’s history. Everyone inside called her “Queen Maria” or “Mama Maria.” The only reason her name is known today is that it was forced into the public record during a major court case in England.
The Undercover Investigators
A group of people including myself (all of whom were born into the cult and left) wanted to locate Zerby and we were organized on social media. But one problem with trying to find her was that no one knew what she looked like. Her secrecy was so complete that the most recent known photo of her was nearly 30 years old. And all the photos of her were small and low quality.
But in 2005, we had a new lead. A previously unknown high-resolution close-up of Zerby. The source wanted to be kept secret, so an exclusive, secret cabal of people on MovingOn.org (the online hub for second-generation ex-members at the time) who were known to be working on or interested in gathering information about the cult and its leaders shared the image between ourselves and planned to post it online and share it with the media. The only problem was: that photo—our new best—was from 19-fucking-70.
You can see the picture above on the left. It was released into the wild on XFamily.org in February 2005. XFamily was a brand new wiki at the time, founded by my friend Robert. A core team of XFamily editors put in countless hours documenting everything we could about the secretive cult, and XFamily quickly became the go-to place for information on the Family. The site’s reputation was further bolstered by a number of drops of internal documents and photos that had never been shared elsewhere. We published any details we could find about known abusers and we didn’t care if anyone threatened to sue us. It was essentially the Wikipedia and WikiLeaks of the Family International rolled into one, and the cult didn’t know where we were getting our material (e.g., in response to this collection of internal documents that I published after acquiring the password and PGP private key for a cult email account, all members were instructed to be wary of letting anyone near their computers, even though I’d lifted the documents from halfway across the world).
But back to Zerby. Although the photo from the 70s was the best available of her at the time, only two months later a collection of a half dozen very recent photos of Zerby were anonymously added to the XFamily article about her. This marked the first time in nearly 30 years that recent pics of her were available to the public. It was also the first time her photo was available to cult members for more than a brief glimpse1.
1 It wasn’t the first time for some members to see her because the cult had occasionally sent top leaders to a few communes to hand-deliver photos and videos of Zerby. Members at these locations would line up to briefly view images of Zerby but couldn’t keep copies.
This release was a major coup at the time, and it was the result of theft by yours truly. I’d stolen the photos from the computer of someone who’d recently left the inner circle. Through some sleuthing and help from others, I was able to identify Zerby in the photos by matching her features with the 1970s photo. It was in fact a major security breach that this person had kept the photos when they left Zerby’s home in the first place.
Just a few days after the release of the new photos on XFamily, the Family International posted a subset of them (the more attractive ones) on their highly-protected “Members Only” website (which, of course, I had access to). This was an apparent attempt to prevent cult members from venturing onto XFamily in search of them.
Soon after, the photos were being broadcast in news reports on Fox News, CNN, etc., and reprinted in high-profile magazines. Rolling Stone published an 11-page article about Ricky Rodriguez that prominently included one of the photos of Zerby, along with the following explanation:
For years, by remaining out of sight and unphotographed, Zerby, like Berg before her, had helped to fuel her mystery and her power. All that changed in March, two months after the violence, when, in an unprecedented breach of security, recent pictures of Zerby were posted on an anti-Family Web site, xfamily.org. The photos were apparently taken by a traitor in her inner circle. Wearing a shimmering purple silk dress with a plunging neckline, smiling a blissful, toothy smile beneath a pair of unstylish eyeglasses, her long silver hair falling past her shoulder blades, Zerby looks like an aging Deadhead, somebody you’d bump into at a co-op in Marin County, California. For many Family Members it was the first picture they had seen of Zerby in more than twenty years.Peter Wilkinson, Rolling Stone, June 2005
It didn’t take too long after that for the Family to change their position on leadership photos altogether. Today, you can find Zerby’s smiling mug on a number of public Family websites, and even a video she recorded for the public on YouTube. But the above photo kickstarted that whole chain of events.
So that’s the story of how publishing photos of Zerby contributed in its tiny way to the downfall of the cult. In hindsight, the group’s collapse was already well underway. The Family International still technically exists today, but it’s a paltry and deradicalized version of its former self.
Law & Order did an episode inspired by Zerby and her son Ricky. In the reimagining for television, the Ricky character survives his murder-suicide attempt and Zerby ends up in court. Although the prosecution has trouble making charges stick, in the end, she’s convicted.
In reality, nothing like that happened.
So where is Karen Zerby now? To this day, she’s in hiding, living off of what she collected from cult members over decades past. But perhaps the situation is not as much of a downer as that sounds. Although there was no dramatic justice, the cult is maybe one-tenth the size it was, if that. And as it collapsed, the Family introduced huge reforms, transforming itself from the notorious cult of its past into what’s now perhaps better described as a peculiar church.
Jesus never did come back to destroy the Antichrist and usher in a new world as members expected. Instead, people had to get jobs and start sending their kids to school. Thousands of old-timers who gave the Family’s leaders the best decades of their lives were forced to rebuild from scratch during what should have been the winddown of their careers.
The world moved on. That’s a good thing.
Want to learn more about the cult?
- In Vandari Pride, I wrote about how people born into the cult reclaimed a term used to literally demonize them.
- Or check out my list of every book ever written about the Children of God.
Want to hear cult songs about Zerby? All Hail to the Queen, Lady Maria, and The Robot were all well-known songs about Zerby, within the group. The first two sing her virtues, and the third is based on cult founder David Berg’s description of Zerby as his robot. The cult had other wacky music, too.
15 thoughts on “Karen Zerby Leak: Unmasking a Cult Leader Who’d Remained Faceless for Nearly 30 Years 🕵🏻♂️”
In awe… this was definitely an ace in lifting the lid of secrecy and bringing her down a peg or two.
Great article, and thank you for your service!
I wonder about the time-frame, though. I left (regrettably years too late) in 2004, and I had seen videos of Zerby and Peter in maybe 2002 or 2003, maybe it was 2004?
My husband and I drove to a distant city for the privilege of seeing these milestone videos—their scarcity working to increase their perceived value— and they were disillusioning, to say the least! There sat Zerby, long, straight gray hair, dangly hippy-style earrings, V-neck dress cut to below her breasts, crazed eyes. Rocking back and forth, bemoaning the “coming persecution brought on by former members, unscrupulous foes using a flood of lies and horrendous accusations against The Family.”
Those videos were the last straw. We left not long after. The woman was clearly mad.
Mary Mahoney, I mentioned in the article (in a footnote) that by then some members had already seen photos and videos of Zerby that were hand-delivered by top leaders. Sounds like that matches your experience.
Amazing info! I didn’t know any of this. I knew there must’ve been so much work done by ex-members through the years but knew (and still know) very little about who did it and what and how they did it. In fact that’s a whole massive and heroic story in itself. Big respect to you Steven Levithan and all those who’ve done so much. Fooking Karen Zerby hey? It only recently dawned on me that she’s equally culpable, if not more so, than Berg himself. Once I (finally) twigged to that, I started seeing how very depraved and self serving she actually was, and still is. She’s literally getting away with murder, a fortune, and the loss of all your childhoods. Berg may well have been insane, certainly a delusional alcoholic, but she’s utterly reprobate because she enabled it all to happen. She wasn’t crazy, she was calculating and power hungry. Berg didn’t use her, she used him. The psychopath who manipulated the sociopath. Gives me the creeps how cold blooded she is. What a coup she pulled off, and she still has power over her protectors and underlings. And that makes me wonder what kind of people they are, and why they do what they do. I can only think the worst of them in working for her and keeping her in hiding.
Reads like a crime novel! So cool Steven! Thanks for sharing. Respect to you and others who played their part.
Amazing work dude! I had no idea the work behind getting these pictures but massive achievement by you and others who helped.
It’s pretty interesting how the unmaskings of Berg and Zerby contributed to removing the glow around them. They were always depicted so much stronger and more beautiful than they really were so that when their photos were eventually released they had glaring feet of clay, so to speak. Berg was hardly lionlike, Zerby exuded the diametric opposite of charisma, and neither could be charitably described as photogenic. Personally I think security had a lot less to do with their appearance being hidden than vanity.
Love this. The first time I saw her face was in the media and it was years after I left.
I did not know the story behind it, but was just like: “Oh damn!! She so busted!!”
I’m sure this helped a bunch of people finally leave the cult.
And I’m sure it made her life more difficult with her identity being out there. Hard to believe she isn’t locked up for all her crimes, but I like to think she lives in constant fear of being exposed/sued/arrested or even killed.
I learned about this cult from my favorite podcast, & man. Congratulations on getting out & finding the courage to get that sick POS’s face all over the media.
I remember when they released the photos to people in the cult, and it was this really big deal. I was a kid in my home but we had to go around in a circle and give Mama Maria and King Peter compliments. And I couldn’t think of anything because I thought they were just ugly old people so I said Maria had pretty hair.
She is the ultimate Karen. She needs to burn for all the horrible shit she put people through.
I don’t want to say what punishment I think she deserves (it’s not pretty), but I so pray she is found.
Pretty powerful stuff!
Very interesting, I’m learning so much, the recent documentary on Discovery+ is really informative and powerful. My family are past members. Karen Zerby and her pals really need to be locked up for good!
Below is a clip from the This Morning show for anyone who hasn’t seen it: https://youtu.be/N8aABrjMZSs
Thank you for your tireless work. My husband and I joined in 1971 and left 6 years later . It goes without saying it has taken a long time to leave that behind. I often wonder what happened to some of the folks we came to love. We were mostly in Mexico and Central America. Is there any list of members and what became of them?
Hi Nina, I don’t think we ever met but I joined in 1972 and also left 6 years later. Most of that time is was in Puerto Rico and South America. Like you, I have been wondering lately about what happened to the people I knew back then, many were really decent folks and friends.
A lot of the information on this site is new to me, very interesting indeed.